Want I Can't Hold

Want I Can't Hold by Trista Rhodes [Verse 1] I don't chase gold, I don't count my wins My soul don't shine from the things I'm in No car, no watch, no throne, no suit Just a world I feel when the noise goes mute [Verse 2] I've known love that can't be bought Heard a silence louder than thought Felt the fire in a stranger's word Some things are real that can't be heard [Chorus] I'm not a materialist Can't hold what I believe exists It's in the way a sunset sighs In the questions that outlive the whys No, I'm not made of steel and stone My proof is found in being known And the deepest truths I trust the most Are the ones I can't hold close [Verse 3] I’ve seen hearts break and still stay whole Watched laughter rise from shattered souls Call it spirit, call it grace Call it meaning we misplaced [Chorus] I’m not a materialist Can’t weigh what makes me feel like this It’s in the silence after pain In what the wounded still retain No, I don’t need a world to prove What I can feel when nothing moves The brightest lights don’t need to show They’re burning in the soul [Bridge] So let the cynics count their gold Let the doubters do as they’re told But I believe in what survives When the surface parts and hearts collide [Final Chorus] I’m not a materialist The realest things don’t clench a fist They drift like rain, like breath, like time Like poetry that doesn't rhyme And if I vanish with the night Know I lived for what felt right The truest things I ever missed Were the ones I can't resist— But I can’t hold… No, I can't hold