At the Mercy of Happiness

At the Mercy of Happiness by Trista Rhodes [Verse 1] I built a life with careful hands Mapped it out, drew lines in sand But joy don’t follow plans or charts It comes like thunder, breaks your heart [Verse 2] Some days I’m smiling just to fake Other days I bend, but I don’t break I try to steer, to call the shots But I’m a passenger more often than not [Chorus] I’m at the mercy of happiness She comes and goes like a reckless guest Sometimes she stays, sometimes she leaves No promises, just silent thieves I do my best, but I confess— I’m still at the mercy of happiness [Verse 3] They said be strong, control your fate But joy can’t read a calendar date You can chase it hard, still lose the race You can find it in a stranger’s face [Chorus] I’m at the mercy of happiness Like lightning wearing a wedding dress I hold her hand, she slips away But I wait around, I hope she stays I dress my wounds and clean the mess— Still at the mercy of happiness [Bridge] It’s not a drug, it’s not a cure It’s a whisper through an open door It’s in the laugh you didn’t fake In the silence after your heartbreak [Final Chorus] Yeah, I’m at the mercy of happiness Not a queen, not a perfect guest But I’d trade my pride, my plans, my maps Just to have her come right back So here I sit, in this worn-out dress— At the mercy of happiness [Outro] I’ll keep the porch light on for her Like she’s more than just a visitor And maybe one day, she’ll confess— She was always mine Even when she left